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November 27, 2011

there are people in there!

The hubs read my post about running today and said it seemed so sad.

In some ways, it is sad. Because I do honestly miss being active. And in some ways, I might (if I were in a certain mood) equate that with losing a part of myself...or at least earning a new role in life...the role of mama.

I do know that I am not losing any part of myself...and I'm going to fight my hardest to stay a person, me, not just a wife or a mama (not that either of those things are bad...they are fantastic. But I've been Heather for 28 years, I'd like to hold on to that part of me as well).

But...the good things is. These boys will be born (hopefully after 37 weeks, hopefully 6 pounds...we can all have hopes, right?) and I will be able to run again and it will be fantastic. I will be able to teach my boys that it's important for every person to do things for themselves, not just the people around them (which is also very important, but we can't do for others unless we take care of ourselves). I've got my double stroller all ready to go (SUPER EXCITED ABOUT THAT...thank you sis-in-law Cheryl for finding one for me). I will be raring to go as soon as I can.

In the mean time, I will think about how there are people in there...TWO OF THEM! They will be living, breathing, thinking, reasoning, loving people. There are times when it's hard for me to comprehend the weight of this fact. It's pretty heavy. I've been concentrating on the beginning...you know, the babies stage. There seems to be so much to read and prepare for that sometimes I forget that one day I'll be able to have a conversation with these boys and it will make sense. We will have discussions and arguments and heart-to-hearts and I will give them "the look" (which my mother so graciously taught me through experience). It's so exciting! And so scary!

And with that...Here is week 25. I'm hoping to take photos every other week until week 30 and then every week. We'll see how that goes.

3 comments:

  1. I always lovelovelove seeing your belly photos! I 100% hear you about how important it is to not lose yourself when becoming a wife and a mama...I know that is going to be so crucial to my sanity and to my well-being in the long run. And in addition to that, to not lose yourselves as a couple either. :)
    -Lisa

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  2. Such a lovely post, Heather! You look beautiful. I love the way you're photo documenting the weeks!! Thinking of you!! <3

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  3. Im not sure whose blog i first saw you on - edible perspective maybe? - Anyways! You look fantastic! I love your striped shirt! Stripes are the greatest when pregnant! I was an avid runner before my first pregnancy and was diagnosed at risk and had to stop soon after i found out I was pregnant. Now I remember those days fondly.... I love spending more time with my daughter than running now adays.... maybe when she sleeps better and after baby number 2! Or so I am hoping at this point!

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